看 The Sopranos, 想朗读并背诵以下台词100遍。
Dr: Do you want to tell me what you’re thinking?
T: Believe me, you don’t want to know. (Pause) You want to know what I’m thinking? Seriously? I’m thinking I’d like to take a brick and smash your fucking face into fucking hamburger.
Dr: Okay.
T: I’m not – don’t worry. I know I broke your coffee table and it’s not gonna happen again. You asked, I told.
Dr: But you’d like to smash my face.
T: Not really. It’s just the way of describing how I’m feeling.
Dr: Do you think making hamburger out of me would make you feel better?
T: Mother of Christ, is this a woman thing? You asked me how I’m feeling. I tell you how I’m feeling. And now, you’re gonna torture me with it. I don’t know who the fuck I’m angry at. I’m just angry, okay? (Pause) Why the fuck am I here? I even asked to come back. I got the world by the balls and I can’t stop feeling like I’m a fucking loser.
Dr: Who makes you feel like a loser, your mother?
T: Oh, please, we wasted enough oxygen on that one. It’s everything and everybody. I see some guy walking down the street, you know, with a clear head. You know the type. He’s always fucking whistling like the happy fucking wanderer. I just want to go up to him and I just want to rip his throat open. I want to fucking grab him and pummel him right there for no reason. Why should I give a shit if a guy’s got a clear head? I should say “a salut”, good for you.
Dr: Let’s get back to smashing my face.
T: Jesus Christ. Ahhhhh!
Dr: No, I think it all ties in!
T: Alright. Sometimes I resent you making me a victim, that’s all.
Dr: I make you feel like a victim.
T: Yeah. Remember the first time I came here? I said the kind of man I admire is Gary Cooper, the strong, silent type. And how all Americans, all they’re doing is crying and confessing and complaining. A bunch of fucking pussies. Fuck’em! And now, I’m one of them, a patient.
Dr: Your parents made it impossible for you to experience joy.
T: Yeah, see? There you go again.
Dr: You said yourself you’re not the happy wanderer.
T: Well, I’m more like one of those assholes than I am the fucking jerkoffs and douchebags I see leaving this office.
偶然听了 George Carlin 的 Life is Worth Losing 开场白,也想朗读并背诵100遍。纯粹出于贯口的感染力。
“I’m a modern man. A man for the millenium. Digital and smoke free. A diversified multicultural postmodern deconstructionist, politically, anatomically, and ecologically incorrect. I’ve been uplinked and downloaded, I’ve been inputted and outsourced. I know the upside of downsizing, I know the downside of upgrading. I’m a high tech lo-life. A cutting-edge, state-of-the-art, bi-coastal multitasker and I can give you a gigabyte in a nanosecond. I’m new wave but I’m old school and my inner child is outward bound. I’m a hotwired, heatseaking, warmhearted cool customer, voice activated and biodegradable. I interface with my database and my database is in cyberspace, so I’m interactive, I’m hyperactive, and from time to time I’m radioactive. Behind the eight ball, ahead of the curve, riding the wave, dodging the bullet, and pushing the envelope. I’m on point, on task, on message, and off drugs. I got no need for coke and speed. I got no urge to binge and purge. I’m in the moment, on the edge, over the top, but under the radar. A high concept, low profile, medium range ballistic missionary. A streetwise smartbomb. A top-gun bottom feeder. I wear power ties; I tell power lies; I take power naps; I take victory laps. I’m a totally ongoing bigfoot, slamdunk rain maker with a pro-active outreach, a raging workaholic, a working rage-a-holic, out of rehab and in denial. I got a personal trainer, a personal shopper, a personal assistant, and a personal agenda. You can’t shut me up, you can’t dumb me down, ’cause I’m tireless and I’m wireless. I’m an alpha-male on beta-blockers. I’m a non-believer and an overacheiver, laid-back but fashion foward, up front, down home, low rent, high maintainence, supersize, long lasting, high definition, fast acting, oven ready, and built to last. I’m a hands on, footloose, knee-jerk headcase, prematurely postraumatic, and I have a love child who sends me hate mail. But I’m feeling; I’m caring; I’m healing; I’m sharing; a supportive, bonding, nurturing, primary caregiver. My output is down, but my income is up. I take a short position on the long bond and my revenue stream has its own cash flow. I read junk-mail; I eat junk food; I buy junk bonds; I watch trash sports. I’m gender specific, captial intensive, user friendly, and lactose intolerant. I like rough sex; I like tough love; I use the f-word in my email, and the software on my hard drive is hardcore; no soft porn. I bought a microwave at a minimall; I bought a minivan at a megastore. I eat fast food in the slow lane. I’m toll free, bite size, ready to wear, and I come in all sizes; a fully equipped, factory authorized, hospital tested, clinically proven, scientifically formulated medical miracle. I’ve been pre-washed, pre-cooked, pre-heated, pre-screened, pre-approved, pre-packaged, post-dated, freeze-dried, double wrapped, vacuum packed, and I have an unlimited broadband capacity. I’m a rude dude but I’m the real deal, lean and mean, cocked, locked, and ready to rock; rough, tough, and hard to bluff. I take it slow; I go with the flow; I ride with the tide; I got glide in my stride; driving and moving, sailing and spinning, jiving and grooving, wailing and winning. I don’t snooze, so I don’t lose. I keep the pedal to the metal and the rubber on the road. I party hardy and lunchtime is crunch time. I’m hanging in, there ain’t no doubt, and I’m hanging tough, over and out.”
在 Listen to Me Marlon 里听到马龙·白兰度的自我剖白,更加爱怜(管他轮不轮得到我。)
It took me a while to realize, you gotta be your own analyst. Unless we look inwards, we will not ever be able to clearly see outwards. Nobody is born evil. Most people are simply getting over bad emotional habits established in the first ten years of their life.
在 Trespassing Bergman 里听到资深迷弟描摹英格玛·伯格曼的晚年,更加爱怜(管他轮不轮得到我。)
His cock was a big problem for him. He was constantly horny. Even as he got older and older. So we can assume that the old Bergman, and this I want you to include, sat here and masturbated like crazy. Everywhere in his monastery on Faro, in his great libraries and in his home theater. This power figure in Swedish cultural life, sat there jerking off like crazy. He has said so himself, that it was difficult to grow old and still be just as horny. So I imagine he must have masturbated a lot. Anything else is unimaginable.
哭哭。
12/04/2016 更新:
但不是将白兰度、伯格曼作为男人来爱怜,只是人,具体来讲只是作为人的某个角度。尽量不去迷恋,也不为难以产生迷恋感而疑惧。